So, tonight I got a package in the mail with a bridesmaid dress for a wedding that I will be in in late May. I got measured for the dress over 6 months ago and ofcourse now the dress barely fits. Is it possible to take-out dresses? Can I order another one with only a few weeks until the wedding? This is a miserable situation.
I haven’t been doing well over the past week. I started last week off in high spirits after I began my blog, but then it wore off. I spent the weekend at home at my parents house, too embarrassed to be seen in public with my friends. My parents went out Saturday night with their friends and I stayed home with their dogs - yep, I am super awesome.
My parents told me that they are worried about me and they think that I am ruining my life. They are worried because I don’t do anything social anymore. I only go to work and go out to eat occasionally. If I don’t do something about this weight soon, it is only going to get worse. At first, I cried and was really upset with them... Don’t they get it?? This isn’t only about the weight. I have an eating disorder. I can’t just be thin and solve this problem with a quick diet. I’ve tried that before. Here I am again!
After thinking about it for a long time, I realized that my parents are right. While taking care of this eating disorder business, I also need to lose weight so that I am not afraid to be seen in public or feel too fat to step foot into a bar or party. I can’t live like this.
I want to start looking into some outpatient and inpatient programs. I need to handle this once and for all so that I can live a normal life!! I have done a tiny bit of research and most of the programs seem geared towards anorexics. I know being in a program with people that skinny would be too hard for me. Anyway, do you know of any outpatient or inpatient programs for binge-eaters? Leave me comments!!
My new goal is to write a little every day- I know it will be therapeutic. Can anyone recommend a good blogger iPhone app?