Hi all. Hope you are doing well.
My parents are out of town again for New Year's and I am still feeling a little unsure about it. I know that I am 25, but I am so connected to them (especially my mom) that when they leave town it is hard. I just feel alone. There is no other way to describe it (even though I live alone). I guess I see them a lot. Like I said in previous posts, once I move forward from my food issues, this is something I need to work on. It is hard to have my own life here because I rely on my parents so much. In reality, I like being with my parents a lot more than some of my friends. I know that is codependent and crazy. I guess I haven't really grown up like other people my age because of this eating disorder and my enmeshed relationship with my mom.
On another note, I can't believe tomorrow is already New Year's Eve. I am not excited about my plans. The more I think about it, the more I am nervous because the group of people I will be with are all in a tight group and I feel on the outside when I am with them. I have a few good friends going, but it is weird because I have known a lot of these people for years and we just aren't friends... If they were interested in being friends with me, they could have done so years ago... so it'll be interesting. I am going to dress cute and get my hair blown dry so I feel good about myself.
I know it is important to make (and achieve) attainable goals. I have never really made New Year's resolutions in the past, but I figured it might be a nice change for me. I also thought it would be good (and healthy) if they didn't have anything to do with my weight. So, here it goes.
1. Cook 2 or 3 times per week instead of picking up/ordering out
2. Eat more "whole" foods and less processed stuff
3. Find an exercise that I like (try yoga) and exercise at least once a week
4. Keep in touch with out of town friends and make some new friends
5. Keep my apartment clean
6. Call grandparents at least once per week
7. Make a budget and stick to it
Thanks for reading my blog this year and I hope to have many more happy posts for you in the coming year. Happy 2011, everyone!