Thursday, September 2, 2010

Wedding Jitters

1. It isn't MY wedding. I am just a bridesmaid
2. It is more than jitters. I am extremely nervous. 

Like I said yesterday, things have been hard lately with food. I think I have binged every day for the past 7 days. Thats scary. I haven't been keeping my food plan at all. I just got SICK of it and then got off track and haven't been able to/tried to get back on track.

Also, to update you on the outpatient program, I started it Monday and Wednesday and did not like it. I was one of TWO people in the "group" which made things hard and the other participant was 15. I am not going to continue the program. I will try to figure something else out and maybe do a lot of therapy myself. I do really like the psychologist there though and I am going to start going to her next week because my old therapist is on maternity leave for the next 12 weeks. 

So, it has been a crazy week with lots of bad habits and some good ones in there also. Here is to hoping/committing to making good decisions this weekend!


  1. oh girl you can do this! hopefully your new psychologist has some new insights or ways of looking at things! keep your chin up :)

  2. You can do this. ONE DAY AT A TIME. Don't bog yourself down with things to come... job things, family things, this wedding. Think of TODAY. What's happening today? Can you get through today? Maybe you should make a chart or something where you can put star stickers... or set aside money for a non-food reward if you can get through today. TODAY ONLY. ONE DAY. You can do it.