Love/Hate Relationship

Things I hate about being overweight:

• Plus size clothing is only made for frumpy old women
• My friends talk about cute designer clothes and I feel awful
• Boys don't give me the time of day
• Even if a guy did like me, I would be too embarrassed to ever be naked infront of him
• My stomach rolls over my jeans when I sit down
• Stretch marks
• When I wear a skirt and walk to much, my theighs rub together
• I have fatty lumps on my arms and can't wear sleeveless tops in the summer
• My ankles and wrists are swollen
• I can't get the expensive ring that my mom got me to slide off of my big fat finger and now I might have to get it cut off
• The way skinny people look at me like I am disgusting
• The way that people look at me in public when I am eating something unhealthy, thinking "she really should ony be eating salads."

Things I like about being overweight:

• I have something to hide behind, a reason to be unhappy
• I feel like it's almost okay to binge because I am already fat anyway
• I can stay home on a Saturday night and just chill. Less pressure to be social
• I am very understanding of people with different physical features because I know how hard it is to be a fat person in today's society- how you look does not determine who you are

And so here goes another Friday night alone in my apartment with nothing but my thoughts...