Monday, August 16, 2010

The Binge

I just binged.
I have been horribly lonely and upset. I called my therapist, both of my parents, and a friend and nobody answered because they were all working. I got really frustrated and angry and sad, sobbing uncontrollably. Now I feel horrible.

I can't live like this anymore. AHHH!!!!


  1. there will be days like this...find something constructive to do -- my wife likes to work with her hands doing crochet and things when she feels stressed.

    stick with it.

  2. *hugs*
    I used to do that. And then when I finally stopped eating, I felt too full, gross, heavy, and even worse. ugh...

    I walk now. Lots. If I'm upset or stressed or feeling like I'm about to inhale a box of donuts, I grab my ipod and head outside. Something about the fresh air, exercise and music tends to make everything feel a little easier.

    Things will get better - you just need to believe that.

  3. Welcome to OA. Welcome home. Is there a physical, phone or online meeting you can attend?

  4. Well, ditto. I did the same today... and I'm feeling miserable. Maybe you should turn to some of your online support in moments like that. Email me - my phone is always on me, and I get emails straight to it!

    Does OA ever talk about personal support? Especially in this time where you feel so alone... I think it would be really good for you to rely on yourself - trust yourself, you are capable of making good food-related decisions by yourself. IF you can't get a hold of anyone else, count on yourself... you can do this. YOU can.

    Also, I think I'm going to start this... lovetoeatinPA over at confessions of a compulsive eater has a bracelet that she wears for clean days. It started out that each day she was clean... she would put a bead on the bracelet. It has since turned to months. I'm trying to come up with something similar. Maybe it would help - a constant reminder. If you can do one day, you can do two. And if you can do two days, you can do three.

    Good luck lady - I'm rooting for you.

  5. Also, I can't find your email address. I want to send you the information about the blog design - will you email it to me,