Friday, August 13, 2010

I'm Baaacckkkkkk (from Treatment)!

I am finally back from treatment. I learned A LOT and I have no idea how to sum it up into words. 

I spent 38 days at Shades of Hope in Buffalo Gap, Texas in Inpatient Residential Treatment.

At the beginning, I wrote letters complaining about ALL of the rules. I told my friends and family that I felt like I was in a prison. I complained about the staff, the facility, and the programming. I didn't like missing my life at home. BUT, I knew that treatment was the best place for me to be. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. It was uncomfortable... but it was also an eye-opening and life changing experience.

I met awesome people who I will never forget. I learned that I am not alone - and that I cannot make it through each day without the support and fellowship of the recovery community. I learned to feel my feelings and, best of all, to do that without turning to food or my parents. I have changed since I left 6 weeks ago.

I have been home exactly 8 days, and it has NOT been easy. I went from being with friends and supporters 24/7 to being alone most of the time. I have felt lonely and confused. They told me that transitioning home would be harder than being at treatment, and boy were they right. Some days, I wish I was back there in a "safe" environment. I am glad to be home though and have missed all of you fellow bloggers dearly. In the 6 weeks that I was away, you were all busy typing away, and I have over 300 posts to catch up on!!

I am going to attempt to blog daily, so keep reading to hear more about my experience at treatment.


  1. Welcome back! Look forward to hearing how you are going :-) I imagine it will be a challenging transition but you can do it!

  2. Welcome back! Missed your posts. We're all right here waiting for you, don't be lonely! :)

  3. Yay! I'm so glad you're back!! I'm glad you learned a lot - I can't wait to hear all about it!

  4. thanks for reaching out and thanks for writing! can't wait to read more and get to know your journey. best best!

  5. can't wait to hear more about it. im so glad it was lifechanging for you, be strong at home, we are here for you!