Today was my second half-day back at work. I have been feeling a lot better at work (than before I left for treatment) and I think it is because I have been getting dressed for the past two days. I don't mean that I went in naked before... I mean that I have been straightening my hair and dressing cute, really "dressing" myself. And, it has made me feel better (and prettier). I am not sure how long I can keep this up. I don't know how many cute outfits I have left ;)
Anyway, I stopped dressing up for work about a year ago when I started gaining weight and feeling bad about my appearance. I thought that I looked gross, so I stopped wearing my hair down and wore whatever fit. I didn't want to look at myself in the mirror, so I avoided it at all costs.
Maybe, I am improving! The last two days have been good. :)
Tonight I am starting a weekly after-care group for people who just got out of inpatient and outpatient treatments. It is an all-addictions program and it meets for two hours once per week. I think it will be a good thing for me. I have also decided to start an outpatient program on three other weekdays from 4:30-8:00 pm. The 12-week eating disorder outpatient program, like my last one, "comes with" a weekly dietitian and therapy appointment. It should be some good, healthy support for me to transition back to "reality." So, that is something every night Monday - Thursday, and then need to make it to meetings on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. It will be good for me.
Do YOU feel better when you dress up to go to work? What do YOU do after work on weekdays to keep busy?
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
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Yes, I absolutely feel better when I dress up. Like I'm more able to face what the day will throw at me.
ReplyDeleteAnd, unfortunately, I *never* have to try to find things to keep me busy. I am desperately trying to find ways to de-clutter my life. But with 4 kids (none of whom drive yet) and two parents who both work full time, there's plenty to do. Always. Too bad you're not here: You could join in the chaos! :)
Keep it up... One day at a time, right?
I know a sponsor that tells her sponsees to do anything that will send a signal to their addict brains that they are worth it. From dressing nicely and doing their hair to cooking for themselves and packing their own lunches. You're worth it!
ReplyDeleteGood for you! Take that time for yourself, dress up, feel pretty. It's always good to pamper ourselves, and we take that time to self care, it really does lift our self-esteem!
ReplyDeleteExcellent approach! Really sensible and I know for myself its a vicious circle, feel like crap, dress like I feel, look in the mirror, feel crappier. Taking care of yourself on the outside as well as all the work you are doing on the inside is really beneficial, f you are anything like me even putting on nice earrings and plucking my eyebrows makes me feel better. You're doing well, just keep swimming :-)
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